So Close
I was still,
As her breath took the silence,
When she wrote it,
Wrestling with,
The doubts in her mind,
She's no prophet,
I'm sorry,
I couldn't move with grace,
Should have held it ,
But I come up,
In a broken home,
Of excuses,
I don't understand,
You left me where we won't last ,
We were so close to,
Walking down same path,
We were always,
struggling in rooms,
That you're toiling,
I'm sincere,
As I stand and wait,
You're controlling,
Well fuck you,
I ain't giving up,
That easy darling,
Cause the women in you,
Is keeping me,
From drowning.
I don't understand,
You left me where we won't last ,
We were so close to,
Walking down same path,
I'm tearing down the pictures you
But it's hard when they're memories,
I'm holding onto
I'm finding ways I can bridge the gap,
knowing love like this,
Ain't easy like that,
We're Not turning back
We're just changing tact
We're not loosing track,
Noooowwww.
I don't understand,
You left me where we won't last ,
We were so close to,
Walking down same path,
Sweet girl
Sweet girl I never knew ya
Thirteen in a speeding car,
guess you won’t be home before dark
Sweet girl I never knew ya
Fifteen when the boys would come,
avoided no to keep you home
Sweet girl I never knew ya
Nineteen yeah those times were fun,
You can’t blame me for the damage done
Sweet girl I never knew ya
Twenty one didn’t seem so bad,
I let it go didn’t think to ask
Sweet girl I never knew ya
Twenty five through a meth stained glass,
Give my advice but the time had passed
Sweet girl what happened to ya
Twenty eight, I’m not the greatest man,
but I knew better than to raise my hand
Sweet girl I wish I knew ya
Thirty years did my daughter wrong,
I guess it’s true what they say,
you never love what you’ve got til it’s gone
What I Already Know
Years of fighting lonely now
Gave this away to a lonely town
To all the friends who let me down
A substance to get high without steady ground
I guess this showed me how
Much I could take with no one around
I’m just trying to make you proud
You’re not always right
I lost a little time in the faith that we hold
when I should’ve shot the questions out then reload
I’ve learnt holding back on the gives you control
It’s just a reminder of what I already know
I drowned myself to wash it out
To little to lose and filled self doubt
I can’t seem to work you out
I beg myself for another chance
Confused to who I’m asking as my head and heart dance
But I can see where I stand
You’re not always right
I lost a little time in the faith that we hold
when I should’ve shot the questions out then reload
I’ve learnt holding back on the gives you control
It’s just a reminder of what I already know
This empty room gets tighter
As I stretch out to reach her
This burdens all the weight of you
I hold my head to hide it
As I fight with this moment
The world feels faster than my breath
I lost a little time in the faith that we hold
when I should’ve shot the questions out then reload
I’ve learnt holding back on the gives you control
It’s just a reminder
It’s just a reminder
It’s just a reminder what I already know
Call Back Home
I laid down by my shadow
He told my secrets
He told me they’re truth
And he said, "Well, fuck where you're going"
Left without reason told me I knew
There's a better way to go about this
A better way to leave it all
Call back home
Remember what you left
Call Back home
'Cause this is how we met
Drive past on most Sunday
Stare at the old house
Where this all fell through
I'm ripping through memories
Trying to get back
What's left of you
There's a better way to go about this
A better way to leave it all
Call back home
Remember what you left
Call Back home
'Cause this is how we met
I'm struggling with this constant
Am I getting this right?
Can I better myself this time
And I was never good at watching
Somebody that could lie
Call back home
Remember what you left
Call Back home
'Cause this is how we met
Call back home
Remember what you left
Call Back home
'Cause this is how we met
Laid down by my shadow
He told me my secrets
The shadow was you
Moving Forward
It's better when it's said alone
Forcing for this space of silence
That we're use to now
Grab upon the sides we're use to
Addicted to the ones that weren't true
I'm just a friend at fault
And I want to feel like we're moving forward
I don't want to feel worthless
Feel like no one can help us
And I want to feel like we're moving forward
I don't want to feel nervous
But I know we ain't perfect
Love is just a better word than
Darling let me take your burdens
Though I've got mine
It's crazy in the way we worship
A God that never seems to earn it
Forced to be mine
And I want to feel like we're moving forward
I don't want to feel worthless
Feel like no one can help us
And I want to feel like we're moving forward
I don't want to feel nervous
But I know we ain't perfect
Cause I'm moving forward
Just to know what's back
No reasons came
For what I don't have
Cause I'm moving forward
Just to know what's back
And I want to feel like we're moving forward
I don't want to feel worthless
Feel like no one can help us
And I want to feel like we're moving forward
I don't want to feel nervous
But I know we ain't perfect
Insincere
Begging just before we parted
Decisions that went unregarded
I bet I'm just another one
Spaces where I'm saying nothing
Scared to be the one that's asking
Tell me I don't need to run
But the truth here
Gave me all I ever want
Remember there was a time back then
Questions fell on either side
Here's the part I can't understand
She's the girl I don't recognise
Clever with her words around it
Victim when you're asked about it
Couldn't take the short way out
Shadowed by your own intentions
Looking at the same one again
Screaming "does this make you proud?"
But the truth here
Gave me all I ever want
Remember there was a time back then
Questions fell on either side
Here's the part I can't understand
She's the girl I don't recognise
Maybe I was just a little too exhausted here
Maybe I found your love just a little insincere
Held it long enough just to see what it could be
Maybe holding on was fueling what we didn't need
But I'm yearning for your honesty love
Remember there was a time back then
Questions fell on either side
Here's the part I can't understand
She's the girl I don't recognise
Maybe I was just a little too exhausted here
Maybe I found your love just a little insincere
Held it long enough just to see what it could be
Maybe holding on was fueling what we didn't need
But I'm yearning for your honesty love
Oh, I'm yearning for your honesty love
Yeah, I'm yearning for your honesty love
Class Clowns
I've been noticing lately
I'm losing myself
I've tried to be gracious
But I'm not doing well
She said "honey don't be wasted
When you return home
You know that I can't stand it
When you make me feel alone"
We've been through this
So many times before
So I took for granted
That you would always know
Hey dear, we always said this
For years, we knew there was distance
When we kissed, at least we can say we tried
Hey dear, don't lose your mind to ideas
That we were just weakened by this,
Who would have thought that time
Would make us feel alone
We could've been the class clowns
Pretend there's no one else around
Wave goodbye to our youth
As we're driving out of town
We were too young
To see this all through
The purest intent
Cause this is all we knew
Hey dear, we always said this
For years, we knew there was distance
When we kissed, at least we can say we tried
Hey dear, don't lose your mind to ideas
That we were just weakened by this,
Who would have thought that time
Would make us feel alone
You & I
Load up your grace with sin
Dive into no honour with him
It starts when your thoughts are grim
You'd be just like you father's ruins
Helpless, growing
Loosens grip slowly takes over him
Somewhere in I'm better now
Somewhere in I talk aloud
Somewhere in I know you tried
Somewhere in I'm holding on
Sometimes I might get this wrong
Somewhere in it's you and I
We knew what was best for us
We gave into desire and hope last
I still find it hard to trust
And let down all my armour this fast
Helpless, growing
Loosens grip slowly takes over him
Somewhere in I'm better now
Somewhere in I talk aloud
Somewhere in I know you tried
Somewhere in I'm holding on
Sometimes I might get this wrong
Somewhere in it's you and I
Somewhere in I'm better now
Somewhere in I talk aloud
Somewhere in I know you tried
Somewhere in I'm holding on
Sometimes I might get this wrong
Somewhere in it's you and I
Somewhere in I'm better now
Somewhere in I talk aloud
Somewhere in I know you tried
Somewhere in I'm letting go
Using all the things I know
Somewhere in it's you and I
Never Was
Never was,
Going to be the same once I laid her down
She showed us how
Something so precious never speaks in vow
Dead whisper fell onto our desperate years
No-one heard there silence until it disappeared
I cant stand to watch this life of misery
It's harder losing someone to a memory
Sunlight never seems to break here
We carried on
Broke the day heavy with the night thats gone
Im better off
Writing it down give a quote each time like its what I know
Same breath as the howling folk with a different name
Ill stay around this island hope she at back again
I cant stand to watch this life of misery
It's harder losing someone to a memory
Sunlight never seems to break
And I cant stand to watch this life of misery
It's harder losing someone to a memory
Sunlight never seems to break the dark here